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September 12, 2006
Constantly~

Ever closed ur eyes and cry urself to slp as visions of the past came flowing thru ur mind to torment u?

Things which i had been trying very hard to forget came popping up again. Things that bring tears to my eyes.

Constantly trying to pretend to be alrite. Constantly trying to pretend to be happy. Constantly trying to endure. Constantly.

Maybe u guys muz be wondering y muz i pretend to be alrite when i m not. Y cant i juz show it out? Actually i dun realli noe the reasons y. Maybe i juz dun wan u guys to be bother by my problems. Dun wan everyone to worry abt me. Or i simply dunno how to put it across to most ppl. Or maybe i m juz kinda close up.

Sometimes, some things is juz not so easy to forget. Its not a matter of choice. Its not within our control. Its not lyk u wanna delete this part of the memories from ur brain n it will juz disappear the very next moment.

I sometimes wonder wads wrong with me? Where has the happie-go-lucky me gone to? Y izzit so hard to control our moods? or should i say can mood be easily control? I doubt so. If not i wont be feeling lyk this now. Having a hard time.

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